In the checkout lane

Cart full of groceries. Man behind me has no cart. Ten tiny pies are carefully cradled in his arms  Cherry, pecan, peach, and apple.

Me: You can go ahead of me.

Him: Nah, I don’t got nothing to do today. I’m just getting me some pies.

Me: You’re sure? It’s really no problem.

Him: Nope. I’m getting these pies. And I’m going to be happy. Happy like them millennials. You know them. They just do whatever they want, and they are happy. I want these pies and I’m going to be happy.

Me: Nodding in agreement. Yep, those millennials do value happiness. Tiny pies make everyone happy.

Him: Just like them millennials.

 

#snapsalley

Snap kid Indian Trail

In some ways I feel silly writing so emphatically about a dog. But SnapSalley had a major role in my story. And I may not have a picture of me and you together, but I have lots of pictures of him. Shots of me and him. Pictures of him with friends his friends–people, canine, and plush. He loved group shots and photo bombs. Up until last week, if you knew me, you knew him. Any time someone dies I think we worry that we did something wrong. As if we can control death. The last few days before he passed my constant prayer for him shifted from please live through insert milestone here to it’s okay if you let go. Please don’t suffer for us. I was also hoping for the wisdom to know when to take him in to be put to sleep. As if we can control death.

I don’t know the very beginning of SnapSalley’s origin story, but I do know the first moment I met him. He was standing at the front of a classroom shaking with excitement. He was going to a trial sleepover with the Joni’s family for the weekend and I remember a twinge of jealousy. If they all had a good weekend, he would be their new dog. I was a little excited to hear he didn’t work out at their house. I stopped by on a Friday after school to pick Snap up. He was so excited to meet me at his house, he grabbed a stuffed animal and ran around Eric’s living room while simultaneously waggling his whole body. “He just does that,” Eric apologized. We packed Snap’s gear into the car, and he hopped in the backseat. The forty minute car ride home was a bit longer and steamy than usual. It would be a long time before I found traveling Snap endearing. For the longest time I could only ride with him for a few minutes because he got so excited. From the very beginning of our story together, he loved adventure.

Even people who don’t know much about dog breeds know Snap is a special dog; most people who know anything about dogs know a Shar Pei when they see one. Last week my new Jehovah’s Witness friend, Joy and her colleague Gregory came by to tell me about the family Jehovah envisioned for me. Gregory was enamored of Snap Salley. He says, “is that a Shar Pei? I don’t know that I have ever seen one before. Can I pet him?” Sure, I tell him. Snap Salley loved all the physical attention he could get–equal opportunity attention hog. Joy even came by on the day Snap Salley died. I told her I couldn’t do a talk with her inside because he was dying. I looked over my shoulder to make sure he wasn’t standing there. But of course he wasn’t. He was in a deep sleep, death breath rattled out of him steadily, but it was definitely near the end. Joy came back by today, and I couldn’t open the door because I knew she would ask me. I don’t really want to talk to her about it yet.

I had not told Witt Salley about the possibility of getting a new dog. I just brought Snap home with the same idea in mind as Joni’s family: if Snap didn’t work out, he would go back to Eric’s. Snap was a rescue dog. The part of his origin story before officially becoming a Salley is that Eric’s mom loved Shar Peis. They even had an older one who was getting fairly settled in her old age. They wanted her to have a friend, and often times people rehome older Shar Peis because they have some health problems. Much to Eric’s mom’s surprise, Snap was nine months old instead of nine years old. Their old Shar Pei had little energy or patience for a puppy. The other part of the story is that Snap was a little hostile when it came to his territory, and he thought Eric’s mom was his. Eric’s dad wasn’t such a fan of the growling Snap started doing, and he basically said “me or the dog.” She really almost chose the dog.

Witt Salley wasn’t home when I arrived with Snap. I put him in the back with Scholar. And I knew it was kind of terrible time to introduce a new dog because I was headed on a road trip to a conference. But Snap charmed Witt Salley right away. Which is good because at that point all of the spontaneity that had been with me on the way home was gone. I was a little worried. So far we had not found the right fit for Scholar, so what if we just could not take on another dog. All I could tell myself was that we had an out. He wasn’t our dog already. He was just a visitor.

I must have gotten updates about how their two days at home went without me, but I remember getting home and talking about what we should do with the two dogs when we went to dinner. They’d be okay outside, we figured. When we got home, both dogs were jumping to get in. So happy. So excited to see us. So bloody. The left side of Snap’s face was shredded a little bit, and he was bleeding. I tried to wash the blood off as much as possible and called Eric’s house. Obviously, Snap needed to go back home to his real house. We could no longer be involved. “He’s your dog now. You took all of his stuff. Good luck with him.” The next morning his skin had fused together like he was the cheerleader in Heroes. I kept the wound clean and by the end of the week he was fine. He was also officially SnapSalley.

Except for a handful of men, the loves of SnapSalley’s life were girls. His first recorded love, Eric’s mom almost kept Snap instead of her husband, which speaks to his magnetism. My friend Rachael says SnapSalley has her favorite dog butt. He and my niece Anslee loved each other. If she had any other uncle on earth, her Southern wiles may have convinced him to let Snap live with her. Greta and SnapSalley also had a special bond.

SnapSalley loved adventure. He ran away from home so many times I lost count. Every time I was distraught. In South Carolina, he and Scholar dug out of the back yard every day for about two weeks before neighbors stopped us on the road. “Your dogs are roaming around the neighborhood all day. They just lay in the middle of the road.” SnapSalley lived in Missouri, South Carolina, Virginia, and Maryland. He also spent extensive time visiting Mississippi and Arkansas. I got used to him being with me in the car.

His favorite place was our sun porch in South Carolina. In another version of reality, he died right out there on that porch sprawled out in the sun. I have a lot of photos of him enjoying that porch. He and I spent a lot of time out there together.

Before he lost his hearing about two years ago, he loved music. He barked along with  Modern Family’s theme song every time it played. If you ever spent time with us, you know how much he loved it.

He could shake, high-five, and he loved his name. You may not believe this, but he knew when we were spelling his name. If he heard anyone talk about him, he was excited. He loved to dance and run. For rotund dog, he sure could race.

He hoarded stuffed animals, sucked on them, and eventually retired them outside. He got away with losing “kids” for years in Missouri because I didn’t hang out with him outside much. Since South Carolina, his pattern has become clear. Meet a kid. Love it as hard as you can until it gets an amazing crust on it. Listen as your parents talk about washing or burning the kid. Grab kid when you think no one is looking and put it way at the end of the sun porch. His favorite/most dependable kids were Lambchop (lost October 2017 at boarder’s in Harrison, AR), and the Build a Bear from Tood.

The past few years, if Snap Salley liked you, he made you hold him. He jumped on me. He jumped on Witt Salley. He jumped on the couch to be beside any and every visitor he could be with. The older he got, the more he wanted to be held. I have pictures of him sitting on Colleen, Anslee, and Andrew.

Snap Salley loved outside. The day he died we went outside for two walks. It was twelve degrees and about half way around the block the first time he stopped. Having little patience for him to get his energy back, I picked him up and carried him back to our apartment. A few hours later, after a long nap with Witt Salley and a long nap by me as I tried not to count the seconds between his breath, Snap and Scholar went out again. He did not walk far, but did stare off into the twilight a bit.

After corralling them inside, I realized I needed to switch laundry from the washer to the dryer. I grabbed the stiff, cold clothes from the washer and stuffed them into the dryer. Push the dryer on. Close the laundry closet door. Snap is standing at my feet like always. Steady breath, but won’t follow me. Old men dogs get tired.  I bent down and picked him up again, to lay him on the stool. As I lay him down, I feel him shudder, and I knew the end was close. I screamed.

SnapSalley’s first digital picture is on Facebook. It’s him and his brother curled up together on Witt Salley’s stool, so him dying where he spent so much time seems fitting. Immediately after my scream, a flood of tears came. Witt Salley went into crisis mode and directed us. Start and move the car. Get the dog in the car. Help Scholar in the car because he has run out after us. Navigate to the emergency vet. Hope you remembered to at least close the front door.

It’s funny for as much as we prepared for it, we didn’t prepare for it. Every death is different. In the end, even though he was wrong about the original timeline and my assumptions about the other details were wrong, the vet had been right about the. Snap Salley would stop eating (about 40 minutes before he died he turned down a treat). He would go fast (He was standing and drinking a half hour before passing ). He would lose blood (His nose hemorrhaged onto the stool). By the time we got to the vet, he was dead.

Because SnapSalley had beaten all odds in 2017, I assumed he would keep smashing records, but we all knew it was coming. He was diagnosed with not one but two kinds of cancer in March. He was given 4-20 weeks to live, and he lived another 42 weeks. I was so sure he was going to die in August that I skipped AP scoring this year. Because I knew I’d regret being gone. I’m pretty sure my Takl provider, Demetrius, said his dog had the same kind of cancer SnapSalley had and had lived about two hours after diagnosis. My dog was kind of a medical miracle.

In his 42 extra weeks he saw one more of every season. He had a lot of delightful meals including some ethnic food and a greasy burger. He went on long walks. He ran around with new friends. He got mad and got over himself. He found new ways to get where he needed to go. He started accepting help more often. He rested when he needed. We should all be so intentionally good to ourselves and to others.

Here’s to living 2018 like SnapSalley.

 

 

Curriculum Characters

Somewhere between Kliebard’s (2005) love of Dewey and Counts’ emboldened speech at the annual meeting of the Progressive Education Association, I began seeing Curriculum Theory as a layered story. Reading about curriculum theories prompted me to imagine characters: historical, fictional, personal, political and institutional representing different facets of curriculum. Some of the curriculum characters and themes I have imagined and recognized explicate my personal curriculum journey below.

50 Shades of Meredith Grey

A hallmark of learning a new theory is seeing examples of it in whatever I consume. I have made countless friends and acquaintances take the Myers’ Brigg personality inventory, and as I am learning more about someone, I sort him/her into the four categories (I can often type someone after ten questions). When I learned about dramaturgy (Goffman, 1959), I stopped conversations to point out when I thought people were saving face or switching roles, last week I made as many people as were willing get their fortune told by the fortune telling fish I swiped from the Media Center (fortune fish thought Dr. Farmer and Leslie Roberts were jealous). When I was writing the first short paper, I started categorizing teachers from popular culture into respective curriculum ideologies, and I began noticing that two of Shonda Rhimes’ most popular shows. In the future, I may do content analyses of the curriculum theories at play in Grey’s Anatomy and Rhimes’ other show featuring education, How to Get Away with Murder.

Grey’s Anatomy, the fictional, soapy drama of a group of doctors in Seattle, has featured an education aspect since the first episode (Rhimes, 2005). Meredith Grey begins the series as an intern, and learns from many attending doctors until she becomes a resident and then an attending herself, guiding two sets of interns so far. In the first episode, Miranda Baily (social reconstructionist), Meredith’s resident, tells Meredith and the other interns they are “grunts, nobodies, the bottom of the surgical food chain,” and as the series progresses, so does Meredith who worked her way from the bottom to the chief of general surgery and (through a series of completely impossible events) a member of the hospital board. The most recent episode features Meredith’s most trusted advisor, Dr. Richard Webber (humanist), her intern, Stephanie Edwards, and the head trauma surgeon, Dr. Owen Hunt (social efficiency theorist).

Throughout the episode, the doctors are working to save a car accident survivor, but at the beginning, Webber commands the doctors to imagine the patient as a person they want to save. When he demands it, he imagines the patient (John Doe, a white male) morphs into a middle-aged Black woman, and he tells a story about her: “Gail.” The surgery is complicated, and the doctors (besides Webber) are exhausted from previous long shifts and the stress of their personal lives. The remainder of the episode showcases the moment when each doctor is able to consider the patient a person rather than a set of working systems. Each time a doctor is able to understand the patient in a personal way, the patient survives a new obstacle during the surgery. At the end of the episode, Webber explained to Grey a paradigm shift from doctors desensitizing themselves from patients to doctors personalizing the patients, which ultimately led to better outcomes. This episode, perhaps more than any other, captures my thoughts about how the primary curriculum theories fit together and my own journey of finding a balance between them by showing both teacher and learner perspectives. In my own interactions with students, the moments I deem most successful are those when a student or group of students are people to me rather than just objectives. Part of why I know my current job as curriculum consultant is not my forever job is the fact that I feel so detached from the important work of the school. Noddings (2010) and her caring about students is a child centered tendency that some may think does not belong in a high school or college classroom. Yet, my least successful days as teachers were those when I prioritized the rules of school over a student’s needs. During my first year teaching tenth grade, Ruben nearly punched me in the face because I offhandedly said I didn’t care that his grandfather was sick, he had missed a deadline. As soon as the words escaped my mouth, I wanted them back. I did not mean I did not care that his grandfather was ill, but it was too late. A few minutes later he was standing inches from me, fists clenched, veins throbbing, voice shaking. My class was scared, and I am thankful Ruben made the choice to leave the room the second time I asked him. There have been other times since that I regretted saying thoughtless things to students, but try to be cognizant that students are learning how to react and in all of the practice situations of school, and I am a model they are consistently looking to whether we talk about it or not.

Oh, the Places I’ve Gone

Anytime I have taught a novel or a short story, my students and I have talked about setting. Setting can be so complexly layered and integral a piece to the story, that it is ruminated upon much like characters (e.g. Dante’s Hell or Twain’s Garden of Eden). I have learned and taught in a wide variety of contexts (i.e. grades 7-12, community and technical colleges, and public universities), and often the places dictate the scope of my actions and thoughts regarding curriculum. I left my first teaching position mid-school year, and in the Spring of 2005 I found myself the ESL Coordinator for Ash Grove, a small district in Southwest Missouri. I assumed I would be working with predominately Spanish speakers, but Ash Grove’s ESL population were nearly all Romanian. My work at Ash Grove was entirely on the fringes—I was a part-time employee, so I was not invited to faculty meetings. I worked with a small population of students: 8 Romanian students (siblings aged 16-6) and 2 French students (siblings aged 12 and 14). I worked with the elementary aged students on early reading and writing skills, and we played rhyming games and sang songs to increase vocabulary and we practiced spelling lessons. I tutored the middle and high school students in any subject they needed help with, which was mostly math, science, and history. During my time at Ash Grove, I switched from the scholar academic mindset I had had fresh out of my master’s program and became more child centered. Because a big part of my job at Ash Grove was to be an advocate for students, and I was working across disciplines and grade levels with a few students at a time, I found myself tailoring lessons to specific student interests. Anna, an eighth grader, hated math and fractions, and I found myself scouring her textbook for word problems, and rewrote them about topics she was interested in (pets because otherwise her apathy outmatched her will to learn.

Memories of Ash Grove are fuzzy. My position originated because when the Romanian students enrolled, the district increased the percentage of ESL students increased enough to warrant a part-time ESL designee. The position was not a good fit for me, so when an English position came open for the next school year, I applied. I had spent a lot of time aligning middle and high school English curriculum for Green Forest (my first teaching position). I worked closely with the district curriculum director, applied for an earned a grant from AP to do a district vertical team workshop, and wrote curriculum guides for 7-12 grades. When I recounted this experience to the principal at Ash Grove, he shook his head and explained, “anybody can do that. We are looking for strong teachers.” I did not get the English position, and the next year I returned to being my normal high school English teacher self.

Another place that has certainly shaped my thoughts about teaching and learning is my online classroom. My humor and body language help me navigate student interactions in ways I cannot rely on when I teach online, and developing my online teacher persona has been challenging for me; I love to talk and tell stories, and online discussions can become stilted. I have taught via few learning management systems, and I have done so for several groups of high school and college. Each semester I get better at teaching online because I become more comfortable in the online classroom. Students have a hard time seeing their online teachers and courses like their other teachers and courses, and for many semesters my composition students complained that they would have learned more in a classroom with a teacher they had daily access to. For a long time I addressed this issue by highlighting or bolding lines in the syllabus, “you can find my contact information in the Instructor area,” but I would stay frustrated about the lack of contact and continued complaints. Last Spring I finally changed how I did things instead of hoping students would read more closely, and this shift is one toward social efficiency and child centered ideologies. Because my composition courses are offered at a community college, they resonate most with working through a set of requirements. I have a hard time labeling a part of education more social efficient than earning both high school and college credit at the same time. Students have to write a prescribed number of specific essays, and I have to grade by a common rubric. I also have to engage high school students who have never seen me or heard my fabulous monster voice. As time goes on, I have added personal touches—I upload videos of me showing students how to find information, and I make them text me so we can have each other’s numbers. I am careful to be concise and clear in my emails to them, and I use their names and offer to call them often. These intentional changes have made my online classroom a much different place, and has given me (and I hope students) a better sense of ownership.

Illustrated Curriculum Book

Education is my life’s work. I played school with my brother, cousins, friends, and toys. Suitcases were our desks, and I vacillated between teacher and student depending on where I played. If all of my experiences in education were a pie, each of the four major ideologies would be represented in pieces similar to a Trivial Pursuit piece. Figure 1 illustrates my current curriculum ideology perspective. I drew myself in the middle to show my influence in the curriculum. Since beginning this course and noticing all of the competing curricular beliefs, I have recognized that I have a responsibility as a curriculum agent (i.e. student, teacher, evaluator, consultant) to try and persuade my curricular work as intentionally as I am able to given any number of constraints. In my online dual credit freshman composition classroom in rural Missouri, I have to present my super liberal self in a careful way. If students were pressed, they would probably guess I am liberal, but I do not think they would see me as pushing a political agenda.

Figure 1: a graphic representing my curriculum theory development

I specifically chose each color to represent its specific ideology; scholar academic is gold, which represents knowledge. Green indicates the growth of the individual in child centered. While I colored the social efficiency piece blue, I thought of blue collar workers, and the purple represents pride and has represented marginalized people. At the beginning of the semester, I would have been in the center, each piece would have been the same size, and the arrows would be bouncing between them to show the contextualized nature of how they work together. I have worked at institutions that were more social efficient than scholar academic, and at some that were more child centered than social efficiency, but I also see a need for differentiation between courses and among students. The juxtaposition of having both the highest and lowest ranked students is not uncommon for rural high school teachers, which was one of the biggest challenges of teaching high school. Negotiating the strongest and weakest student within a class period meant that I had to use features of child centered (engaging student interest), social efficiency (working toward a skillset that could be tapped into a later time) and scholar academic (investigating the aesthetic aspects of language) during a single class. I did not intentionally think of those ideologies while I meandered between them, which is what the arrows represent.

The Biggest Piece

At the beginning of the semester, I was hesitant to call myself a social reconstructionist. As the semester went on, the election loomed, and then we lost a utopia many of us took for granted before November 9. Part of me thinks writing about this is a bit dramatic. I hear people saying that one person cannot change the country so much in a few years. But then Count’s (1932) words, “with the world as it is we cannot afford for a single instant to remove our eyes from the social scene or shift our attention from the peculiar needs of the age” (47) resound in my head along with the work of Friere (1970). They both call teachers to action. Yet, my social reconstructionist awareness has been progressively increasing over the past decade within all of my education experiences. As a teacher, my bend toward social reconstructionist started when I met Laura Rankin.

Rankin has been teaching at Spokane High School since the early nineties. When I met her, she was starting her 13th year of teaching mostly upper classmen a variety of English Language Arts courses including college prep and creative writing. Laura and I carpooled together about 40 minutes back and forth between Springfield (the third largest city in Missouri) and Spokane (tiny town, rhymes with Billy Zane), so we got to know each other pretty well. Rankin was the first colleague I tried to emulate. Her students respected and worked hard for her, even if they did not imagine themselves to be good students. When I started teaching, No Child Left Behind proponents (not Au, 2012) were beginning to be stricter about the percentage of proficient students; at small schools like Spokane, a few dropouts were a significant percentage of students and we spoke often of the troubling contradictions of teaching to the test and developing critical thinkers. As the administration became more aggressive about test scores, Rankin repeatedly told me, “if we create critical readers and writers, we are doing our job.” Her quiet mantra became mine, and it has served me well. Laura created a culture of readers at Spokane by reading. She began a book club, and invited teachers to participate with students. Once a month laughter and serious conversations are happening about books after school in her room. She lets the students help pick them, but the texts she selects are often about students much different from the ones in her book club. As people read about other people and places, their own minds become stretched and more inclusive and empathetic to people who are different from them (WSJ article), and I heard many book club participants explain how they would not have picked up a book had it not been for book club. Rankin also helps students get recognized for their writing by entering as many student works as possible in the regional writing contest of the Language Arts Department, a Southwest Missouri K-12 writing competition. Rankin is a literacy champion for students, and helping students become critically literate is certainly the work of social reconstructionist, although it is more of Freire’s version instead of Counts’. By helping students see multiple perspectives and have successes in literacy, Rankin has created an army of thoughtful former students. She has often commented on the service intentions of classes of Spokane students—a class of 50 students will have a dozen or so who hope to go into education or medicine.

While I worked with Rankin, I took some upper level sociology courses to earn the 18 required hours to teach sociology.  One of them, The Civil Rights Movement, changed how I approached books like To Kill a Mockingbird and Huckleberry Finn in my classroom—instead of focusing mainly on Lee and Twain’s writings, I asked students to grapple with the social issues. We spent time talking about prejudice and choices almost as much as language and parts of the story. When I left Spokane for a new teaching adventure at Missouri’s Virtual Instruction Program, Rankin and her influence on me gave me pause.

Since working with her, I have noticed myself taking a more intentional approach to social justice issues in my own classroom and I have tried to emulate the ways she talks about books with students. The purple piece of my curriculum ideology, social reconstructionist, is bigger now than at the beginning of the semester. I can see evidence of my social justice focus in my most recent semesters teaching high school, and certainly in my work in the English Department as a lecturer for freshman composition. The social reconstructionists are the teacher heroes we most often think of—the ones who disrupt the status quo like Dead Poet Society’s Keating and Freedom Writers’ Gruwell. Of course, there is a possibility I am just taking notice of more of these teachers because I am hoping that there are more teachers like them out there, even though I fear they are merely characters in a movie instead of characters influencing students’ curricular experiences.

 

 

After Finals

We tell our secrets to each other in hushed tones,

after midnight. The roar of the bar dying down,  flights

having lost our sobriety between poorly harmonized

“Bohemian Rhapsody,” and a large pepperoni pizza.

No one mentions them again when the day brightens

and we have resumed our normal day-to-day

moments.

Can ‘o courage

I waver between being completely calm, cool, and collected, and being a hot mess. When I curled my mom’s hair before her funeral I was nearly robotic. At Tokyo Bay when the servers sing happy birthday and beat on a drum, tears roll down my face. I keep it together when my father-in-law has been murdered, but at a pep rally I can’t see the cheerleaders because I’m blinking back sobs. I cry about my problems in the car. To and from work. To and from the store. I’m not the girl crawling into someone’s lap or the woman slumped against her husband sobbing. I’m the girl holding the sobbing friend.

When I do cry it’s because I’m afraid. I’m afraid that I can’t handle the change of something or that I can’t go on without someone. My biggest fears are probably everyone’s biggest fears: being left alone, realizing I don’t matter, losing someone I love. Yet they paralyze me at ridiculous times. If someone is five minutes late, I assume that person is charring in a fiery car crash or under a semi.

I also fear tiny things: mice, being laughed at, talking to strangers, falling down (or up) a flight of stairs) locking the keys in my car, accidentally not cooking chicken enough. Some of these fears are healthy. I don’t want to get salmonella. Not talking to strangers, on the other hand, might me to miss out of experiences or relationships. Or does it help me from being kidnapped?

If I could open a …I imagine this was going to say a can of courage. But I wrote that above jumble 4 years ago. And I’m publishing it now becauseI am tired of starting so many drafts and deciding they aren’t ready or good enough. It’s never or now.

The BIG Review of We Are All Completely Beside Ourselves

We Are All Completely Beside OurselvesWe Are All Completely Beside Ourselves by Karen Joy Fowler
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

There are times that I read books that are well-written, but the stories don’t stick with me, or times when the stories flatten me, but I almost can’t see them because of the pedestrian writing. Fowler, again, has delivered the very best kind of book: the one that is well-written with such an interesting story that I didn’t want to see end. I didn’t read the synopsis of this book, but began reading it because a.) it is Clemson’s summer read, and b.) Karen Joy Fowler blew me away with the Jane Austen Book Club, and I don’t like Jane Austen (I know, I know, that’s evil….sue me).

I didn’t realize Fern was a primate, but looking back, I should have realized. Yet, that’s what Fowler planned, right? I saw Fern as a sister, a daughter, a family member rather than an animal first. Because of that I was able to understand how Rosemary could forget when Fern went away. And why Lowell left or had to leave.

This novel, beyond being a carefully crafted and effective story, brings up many issues I like to pretend don’t exist, much like Rosemary. I found myself aligning with her wish to sleep through a bad time and ignoring problems or seeing them in a whole other perspective. Being aligned with her from the beginning helped me stick with her during the hard times when I was yelling, “slap Harlow!” who wound up being a believable character. Animal testing, family lies, how we live so much of our lives thinking through the layers of those with whom we surround ourselves, and how we can so easily misread or misremember truth resonates with me. I hope it resonates with the freshman class at Clemson this summer as well.

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The BIG Review of Brown Girl Dreaming

Brown Girl DreamingBrown Girl Dreaming by Jacqueline Woodson
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

I love Woodson’s memoir about growing up during the volitive Civil Rights Movement, and would recommend it to anyone, but that’s only one reason to pick up this book. Woodson’s narrative is so well-written the reader flies through the stories without realizing it’s effortless. The periodic haikus about listening and the easy way she moves through lead poisoning as well as the difficulties of loving family during the bad choices they make, are presented so effectively one will long remember this book after its final page is over.

I read this at the beginning of the summer for a class, but I had been wanting to read it for a while. I love that it’s a book partially set in past Greenville, South Carolina, an area close to my home and one I recognized at once: the heat, the smells, the sounds, the quiet nature. I hope it is just the beginning of a string of fantastic books I read this summer!

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The BIG Review of Thousand Words

Thousand WordsThousand Words by Jennifer Brown
My rating: 3 of 5 stars

Quick read about the dangers of sexting. Decent plot, but one character, Mack, leaves more questions than answers. Instead of relying on him to show Ashleigh that she can be more than her mistake, it would be nice to see her rely on herself or have stronger parents or friends. I hate to assume that homeless teens can’t help other teens with problems, but their whole relationship seems a bit far fetched.

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The BIG Review of Devil in the White City

The Devil in the White City: Murder, Magic, and Madness at the Fair that Changed AmericaThe Devil in the White City: Murder, Magic, and Madness at the Fair that Changed America by Erik Larson
My rating: 4 of 5 stars

My favorite history lessons are those that come to life through stories. Anne Frank, Emmitt Til. Henrietta Lacks. Non-fiction does not always hold my attention, but the few that do stick with me.Columbine. I’ll Fly Away. I recommend them to anyone who will listen to me.

Devil in the White City is now part of that list. At first I wasn’t that interested in the Chicago’s World’s Fair, but more so in the Devil–H.H. Holmes. All those Law and Order: SVU marathons have made me convinced that pretty much everybody is a creeper, and I know I wouldn’t trust Holmes or his blue eyes for a minute. As I continued reading about the fair, though, it became as important–I knew it was going to happen because of the first chapter, but its ultimate success took a back burner to any number of near catastrophes that could have prevented the fair. I love that so many people from history make appearances at or around the fair: Helen Keller, Frank Loyd Wright, Walt Disney, plus Shredded Wheat and Pabst Blue Ribbon!

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